I had the most wonderful day today. No, I am not engaged. Hehe. No, I did not inherit a fortune or win the lotto. But I might as well have. That’s how wonderful I feel.
God has really been teaching me a lot of things these past few weeks. I’ve been making mistakes recently that have caused me to feel like a failure, to feel dejected, to feel immature even. But as I took every issue and every concern out of my heart (a difficult and painful process) and laid each one down for God to take, I began to see that God allowed for these mistakes to happen to expose things about me that He wants to change. I realize more and more how much I need to rely on His grace every single day. Every single day, I need to allow Him to do His work in my life. Of course I still make plans; of course, I still need to be faithful and prepare. But I need to make room for what He’s doing. If He really is Lord, then anything He says and does goes. Sometimes all I see is the mess–the plans that don’t push through, the unexpected delays, the efforts that fall short, the disheartening disappointments, but when I take the time to be quiet before Him and really let go of my stubbornness, God allows me to get a glimpse of what He’s doing and He shows me a perspective I never saw before because I was too busy forcing my own way. And even though I don’t see the whole picture, I am assured that the God who made the universe so grand yet so detailed, so complex yet so ordered, so unpredictable and yet so mind-blowingly beautiful, can surely be trusted to fulfill His promise that He will make things beautiful in His time (Ecclesiastes 3:11).
There are just so many things I am grateful to God for. This day alone brought wonderful surprises from Him. Here are some of them:
1. Favor with people we met with today.
You have to understand that I am not much of a salesperson. And so I have always dreaded meetings where I have to convince people to do something I’m not sure they would be keen on doing. But today, everything was almost too easy. Approval from ASC for our TVC – check.
Radio deals – two approved, no questions asked; two pending but response was favorable so we just have to follow up
TV deals – two signed almost immediately
2. Favor with the boss.
Totally unexpected, I tell you. Our boss emailed me to congratulate us for exceeding our 08 targets and says she is proud of me and my team. Kulang na lang tumambling ako. The response was so unexpected because we were so far from hitting the media mileage target for one title we’ve always had trouble generating publicity for. I was expecting she would focus on that and not recognize that we hit our targets for the rest of the other titles.
3. A PR dream team.
We may be undermanned now but I can’t complain because my team is STELLAR. I have THE BEST writer and THE most organized, hard-working, and intelligent PR officer ever. I also have THE BEST publicity pitch-er and THE most flexible, hard-working, and intelligent PR associate ever. What more can I ask for?
4. The potential addition to our dream team.
I am currently interviewing applicants for another associate position in our team and although I saw only one candidate who could be the right fit among the five I’ve already interviewed, I am happy that we’re on the right track because we know exactly what we’re looking for. I am confident we will find the right one before this month is over.
5. One Life to Live at the Fort
I am so psyched that I decided to attend the One Life to Live talk at the Fort today. I actually only went to keep an officemate of mine who has been attending the talk these last three weeks company. I ended up being so blessed by the lesson, which was taught by one of my favorite preachers (Pastor/Doc Jun Aguilar who also used to be my immediate superior when I was still working for Victory Fort) and the discussion among the people seated at the table I ended up facilitating. It’s really, really awesome to witness how God works in the lives of the most unexpected people. Grabe.
6. Dinner with one of my closest friends.
Ended the wonderful day spending wonderful time with a wonderful friend. God has changed both me and Marge so much from the way we used to be that we just have to laugh now when we look back at all those times we used to cry or get upset over the littlest things (na syempre dati napaka big deal for us). Haay, only by the grace of God, indeed.